My Gift

When ones is given a gift in life, wouldn't it be logical to utilize it to the absolute fullest potential?

Unfortunately when one posseses self-destructive qualities, gifts are disposable. Also the first thing to go out the door when restrictions are required for punishment purposes.
Basically, with this beautiful gift in my hand ive by passed numerous inpirational moments for torturing purposes. Why? For pure entertainment. So senseless to dangle this ability in amusement when all along messages could have been sent into the world for those in desperate dire need. Selfish is the best description.
After all this time has passed me by, and i have not documented a single experience or feeling, I've decided this torture must be put to an end. I need to release the words, not hold them back, there's no need for restriction any more.....