Me, Myself and I

Abandon more than ever before. Decisions decided - to my naked eye but a blur. Spur -of a moment - unsure of its consequent. Unacceptance frequents, It is promised and it is written.    So I float and continue to wander. Distracting my ability to change the surface and what lies under.. A hoax to stay or to go, can't help but wonder. Is this dreaming or have I woke- I am numb and I am somber. I am burnt out like the blazed sun,scorched.  Pencils lead heavy even for this drawing board. Blank and adrift , mind has been washed ashore. Confused of what I want,but I know that it is so much more. Too much to take in. Aware of my surroundings but im naked. Unprepared-too scared to awaken. Ill continue to drift off as this is too much to take in.